singlerella...

2009-11-27T09:32:00.000-08:00

im beginning to have feelings for you..
What miss syahirah said is true..
i want to love and be loved again.. :)

2009-11-07T22:54:00.000-08:00

seeing him making an effort to dress up into something formal for our dinner really touched my heart. something that i dont expect from him even as a friend.i felt relax,happy and just go with the flow without stressing myself to keep thinking what's next for us which i usually did last time.

making that serious decision really made me cry so bad. it's like as if im left with no choice. however today,im relieve and feel so light. as if i just woke up from a bad and draggy nightmare.
but i never regret it end this way because i did love you and tried my very best to be with you.

2009-08-22T08:03:00.000-07:00

slowly,im beginning to stop holding on to your promises.

2009-03-17T02:47:00.000-07:00

Sometimes girls are weird and hard to understand.
Like me.
Sometimes i dont know what i want.

2009-03-15T01:44:00.000-07:00

There were times when i just want to sit and stare into your eyes..
Looking deep into your soul..
Trying to read your mind..
To know you better..

But sometimes i just want you to know me better...

2009-03-11T08:38:00.000-07:00

how i wish things were different...

2009-03-05T10:01:00.000-08:00

White
A graceful swan
Ducks swimming in the pond
Surrender,purity,innocence
A ballerina who twirls and turns
White clouds swirling by
Up,up,away in the sky...
The feel of white snow
That lies underneath below
The touch of an angel
That changed my world
Shines a light to my soul
Vanilla ice cream
Pure and full of lust
Honesty and trust
Resembles the beauty of someone's heart
Peace and justice
A white flag flying in the air
Cracks in the wall,
A door to my freedom...
White.

2009-02-01T18:57:00.000-08:00

My way to celebrate 'freedom' after 3 months of attachment??

Perfect manicure and pedicure..
and of course, a new lipbalm.. :)

2009-01-27T16:55:00.000-08:00

It's not funny anymore.It's too much.Please stop it.

2009-01-11T08:30:00.000-08:00

it is the 1st time you ask me that question..
i just dont know why...
but i feel you do care...

2008-12-21T05:25:00.000-08:00

and yes,i still love him...

2008-12-19T09:26:00.000-08:00

alot of things happened lately...
ups and down..

well,i just want to thank you...
thank you for everything...

2008-12-15T08:08:00.000-08:00

life is getting weird ...for me...
should i change...for a better me..?

2008-12-13T08:57:00.002-08:00

sometimes i just feel some people are attention seeker...
exaggerate small matters....shouting here and there as if they are in control...
looking down on others as if they are poor and stupid..

whatever~

2008-12-07T06:10:00.000-08:00

i know it's total lame but i keep using 'im fasting' excuse for me to sleep almost the whole day and dont even bother to help my mom to cook or even clean my room.. :)

im tired..

during dinner,we discuss what we'r going to do tomorrow...
i dont feel like accompany my family to the mosque and witness the whole Qurban...

so yeah,i'll just help nenek with the cooking tomorrow...

im tired..i want to sleep....

2008-12-06T08:52:00.000-08:00

i want to watch muallaf!

2008-12-03T08:02:00.000-08:00

i have to blog about this...i just dont know why...
but i think i should..hahhaha

well,i just found my new role model..
yes,a new role model.. :)
she's my new clinical instructor...
she's currently doing her master and she's only 27 years old...
and studying oversea with her own money...
oh gosh,i've never think of myself doing masters...
i mean it's like a mountain for me to climb..hahaha

but she kept saying it's possible...

i just want to thank her for giving me inspiration and bring me back to the correct path..
wake me up from this 'stupid sadness' dream and make me refocus what i really want in my life...

yes,i have my dream...
nope it's not a dream..
it's something that i really want to work on...

and yes,i've finally have the courage to face the world and move on...
instead of keep thinking about why it happened and what's my mistake....
yeah,i have to admit it was not easy...

and finally, i have the courage to write my employment application form...

2008-09-19T09:35:00.000-07:00

i really had a great time with girlfriends just now...and ya,i plan this outing with others' help,of course...hahaha

buka-ing at banquet parkway...it's been quite sometime since i last went shopping there...
and then,chill at starbucks as usual...
ive been craving caramel frap with java chips...hahhaa

and ya,catch up a lot of stories...esp since irah is sort of like our history book..hahha

finally i get to meet u girls.. i love you all.. *big hugs*

btw,i have this craving to shop for shoes again...

2008-09-12T08:34:00.000-07:00

i couldnt sleep the whole night...i just dont know why...
well,the whole night, all i did was

1) blogging crap on the last entry,
2)trying to watch wall-e online,
3)helping Farihin with his proposal..discussing what flowers to buy,how to ask..and everything,
i really think he's such a sweet guy,
4)trying my best to draw Darling again,
5)encourage someone to move on and get over with the pathetic emo,
6)talking with Faiz on the phone to catch up some stuff....

and i just found out something....
i know im not supposed to gossip but i really couldnt believe it..really..
all this while i thought u are a good person...i even nicknamed u 'ustaz'..
but u show ur true colour..finally...
and im soo glad that i made a good decision last time..

after subuh, i tried to sleep and woke up at 11+ am..
thinking of surprising mama at her workplace...she just got a part-time job since sis and i are already big enough for her not to worry about us..

she smiled when she saw me...i sat down and wait for her to finish her work..
she kept asking 'are you going out with your girlfriends?'
i replied 'no'..
she asked 'so u just come here for me?'
i replied 'yeah..i just want to observe how u work..and let's go shopping after this...'
she complained she's tired and didnt bring enough cash..but she kept smiling when i told her i brought enough for both of us..

i know she's happy :)

2008-09-11T08:56:00.000-07:00

today is the 6th day im slacking at home...
at 1st,i thought i have a good break..finally

1)free from attachment and school..
2)get to watch tyrashow everyday..
3)get to watch all the movies i've been wanting but had no time..
4)get to do manicure and pedicure..
5)get to clean and organize my make-up..finally..
i just wonder why i buy a lot of make-up..ish3..i mean i have only upper and lower lips but i have 7-8 lipsticks excluding lip glosses and lip balms..what was i thinking when i buy them? and this is only 1 part of make-up..haiz..
and ya,i just bought a new lipstick and lipbalm 2 weeks ago..

ok,i think i need to replan my holidays...really...
my brain are dying out of boredom soon..

2008-08-08T20:54:00.000-07:00

im in love with you...again...

2008-08-03T01:59:00.001-07:00

i hate what im feeling right now...
green-eyed monster is seriously irritating..haunting me for no reason...
urgh~ i hate this...

just get away from me...

2008-06-30T08:27:00.000-07:00

i've been watching Human Spirit every week...
and every episode has always touched my heart...
their courage and perseverence to continue their lives as normal as possible and ignore people's insult really make me feel proud of them...
but what i love most is the love from their loved ones esp their parents and their partners...

However,today's story not only touched my heart but also made me cry...
yes,i cried...
it's about a young man who is half man and half tree...
his wife left him and he has no choice but to take care of his children...
his deepest fear is whether his children will inherit his disease...
and his job? he works in a so-called circus..with his other friends who also have rare disease...
when i saw his friends,i pity them...
but when i saw how they work,it really make me cry...
people look at them as if they are aliens or not humans...
but when they describe each other's character, they are just normal human beings who have feelings too..and they have to accept their condition...
that's why they dare to work that kind of jobs..
some maybe think it's cruel while some maybe think it's good because at least they have jobs...
but what the man only thinks is how he can feed his children despite his condition..

Today's episode has really wake me up...
all this while ,i've been a spoiltbrat who keeps complaining about my imperfections...
my fats and pimples..blabla
but today,i realise how fortunate i am ...
and just accept whatever Allah has given to me...
face whatever challenge and continue my life as per normal just like those incredible and amazing people.. :)

2008-06-28T11:29:00.000-07:00

Finally,i get to blog....

well,it's kinda a tough week for me...but everything's fine :)
i hate school.... im tired with all the projects ...
some are stucked,some i dont even understand and some havent even start yet...
and most of them are due soon....
and we also have to do mini presentations for tutorial every week which i find it unnessary to do...
and clinical exam is in 3 weeks time..'great!'

and add to it,my dad has been hospitalised since monday,the day after i just got back from kelantan....
so,everyday after school,i'll visit him ....
what make me really frustrated is that i dont understand about his diagnosis...
i just hope he get well soon..

n because all this,i dont have time to blog about kelantan or upload my pics in multiply..but i promise soon.. :)

2008-06-02T08:02:00.000-07:00

guess what?...they add another 2 more projects...
excuse me?...dont u think we already have enough?..plus the fyp?
haiz...

im still waiting for mama and sis....

and u all should watch Human Spirit.....a really good documentary...

2008-05-31T08:58:00.000-07:00

im sooo happy today...ya,bcz i went shopping with mama n little sis....
i dont know why..but i suddely feel like i want to shop...btw,it's GSS!!

went to suntec....and i swear if i have lots of money..i wanna buy the whole clothes from cotton on...it's super super super cheap..hahha :):)
i know my main shopping list is to buy cardigan..but of course,we tend to buy other clothes too..hahaha..gals..as usual...

then,we went to marina sq ...had dinner at LJS as mama wanted to try the peg-leg food...then,we con'd our window-shopping..but of course,went into some shops n bought some tops again..hahah

and mama keep reminding me not to buy shoes just bcz i bought the gold slip-on last holiday...but i love the blue shoe frm CnK...

btw,i think the happiest girl is my little sis..bcz her big sister paid for her clothes..hahaha :)

2008-05-28T23:30:00.000-07:00

yup,im sick....i know that....
went for the 2nd lec...
it was raining heavily and i forgot to bring umbrella....
but i still went for my 1st prac lesson...

i reached there earlier ..so,i went for the photo-taking 1st...
and i was confuse..cz i dont know how to report for my lesson...
luckily,i called Sya...and there's this kind guy helped me alot....
A BIG THANK YOU FOR BOTH OF YOU!!

i was really excited when i get to drive..hahah
and of course,confuse...esp abt the clutch..
but it was a good experience... :)
and i met farihin,pri sch friend when i was waiting to apply for PDL...
catching up with lots of stories...
lyk duh...it's been so long...
and met the kind guy again..asking hw was my 1st prac.. :)

yup,im ready for my nxt prac...woohoo!!
n btw,thx u ,sya for the call.. :)

2008-05-28T08:50:00.000-07:00

im sick and i want to go home..
but im stuck in this comp lab ..just because i decide to skip the 1st lec...
i was happy yest and the day b4 as mama bought chocolate banana cake for me when im having craving for it..

i feel like having ice-cream fondue...ya,i know im getting fat with all this desserts...but who cares?

i still love my body :)

2008-05-16T23:51:00.000-07:00

yay! im having 4 rest days...finally..after so much stress from school..urgh~
i pass my exam..but i dont think it's a gd pass...all thanks to the lecturer...

and besides school projects...ive got to do 2 projects of a module for madr...
i hope i can handle all this crazy projects...

im supposed to go for tut today..but it was cancel last min..woohoo!!
and im too lazy to go for the briefing as it's only 20 mins...wasted..
accompany mama shopping and bought some basic stuffs...
and i met an old friend,Jun.. :)

ok...so,what am i going to do for the next 3 days?..hmmm....
and im crazy over the old songs from BSB...hahhaa

2008-05-10T09:02:00.000-07:00

it's been a long time since i blog...and it feels abit awkward to start to blog again....

a simple and meaningful day for me...
i pass BTT...finally..hahhaah
and i get to meet uncle....finally after almost 4 mths?hahaha.... :) :)
i was really excited....especially when i saw him....
i cant describe how i felt just now...
all i can say is im still smiling.... :)

2008-04-05T08:32:00.000-07:00

plan to go out with sis today..but it was cancel last min...
i had noodles for lunch and dinner...
mom cook mee hoon goreng before she went out...
sis tried to cook mee hoon goreng [ chi-style]
and aunty gave mee goreng for dinner...
and i think i'll stop baking for now...cz im starting to gain weight with all the meringue...haiz..

2008-04-04T20:19:00.000-07:00

finally, i manage to calm down after a stupid night yest...
i had a great shopping-therapy with Sya yest and someone just had to make it worse by end of the day...
i had restless nights before that and someone just want to test my patience..
i think this is too much....
it totally just irks me...i really felt uncomfortable and angry....
however,i decide to get over it as today is a new day...
i realise i shoudnt be angry with uncle just because he told me that idiot is a nice guy...
instead,i should appreciate him... :)
i feel happy and calm..so,i decide to bake meringue again...
i feel great again after the outcome of it is successful....
i didnt know baking can be a good therapy... :)

2008-03-22T17:47:00.000-07:00

today,i decide to be a good daughter...no plan to go out today...
mama must be thinking im a good daughter bcz i finally wake up early this morning.
not like other mornings...
but actually,i woke up by a call frm uncle..hahaha

and i had ice-cream on a rainy day...
initially,mama wanted me to buy for her only as she feel heaty in the throat..
but of course,im a ice-cream addict...
and ayah n adik want too..
in the end,i bought 2 tubs again...

i didnt know meringue taste soo delicious with ice-cream...yum!yum!

and yest,lepak at starbucks at PP...
i reached 1st..yay!..a good improvement.. :)
n then,Rau....i really miss her alot!:)
im really sorry, Mas for being rude on the phone...
i know it's soo me..but a change in me will be better for us..haiz...
had dinner at banquet with them n Naz
and i said 'thx u!' to the cleaner aka construction worker...

then,Sya came ..catch up with stories....
waited for the guys b4 going off..
and there's this guy who kept changing seats
and finally he's happy with d seat nxt to me which is so sempit...
he started to talk to Fiq n turn n talk to me all the way ..
seriously,ive no idea wt he's talking abt..haiyo...

2008-03-20T23:15:00.000-07:00

let's blog abt my birthday.. :)

so,today...
had a bowling date with salwa....
n there's this guy is really kind enough to give free-coaching lesson :)
n after that,gossip-therapy at mac...
im seriously falling in love with strawberry milkshake....
catch up lots of stories with her esp about 'u-know-who'...hhahaha
i miss her soo much :)
n iqah too...maybe the nxt time we meet,iqah has a new guy..just like how she surprised us last time...hahahah
a mini-date...but i still had fun! :)
another date perhaps?

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plan to go to sya's house for a DVD marathon...
bought 2 tubs of ice-cream...it's been a long time i had ice-cream..n i make sure no one can stop me this time....
n irah was there...n mas too...
and of course catch up a lot of stories..and i guess mine was the main one....hahahah
THEY SURPRISED ME WITH CHOCOLATE BANANA CAKE..YAY!!!
hmmm....really delicious...thx u,gals...u all r d best!...
and start d marathon..
they bastard me...and i seriously think it was mas's idea...cz mas kept hinting hindustan movie...wtever...
emily rose..of all movies???
n suddenly i have funny thoughts about the movie esp the way they act...
okok..i noe...weird thoughts..
afer that,irah went off n 27 dresses was nxt...

i really had fun with them...i love u gals..include ili n rau...
tiz fri??... :)

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thought of going out...
but then,decided to stay at home n pamper myself..
did manicure and pedicure..
everything about gal's stuff....
after that,sis n i bake meringue... :)
a simple bday for a simple gal...

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had madr camp..at lakeside..
made a few friend name farhan...
both of us handle a group..n we had activites...
it was fun. :)
after dt,had a late dinner with family..
a mini-advance birthday celebration...
since it was late,everyone decide to just go to alfiah...
thx u....ayah,mama n adik.. :)

2008-03-20T10:06:00.001-07:00

so,mas...here's my proper wishlists...

I WISH FOR :
-a rollercoaster ride
-watch
-wallet
-pink cardigan
-grey cardigan
-black skirt
-lady-like slipper
-mascara
-DP flower ring
-brown waist belt
-cream clutch
-make-up box
-new manicure and pedicure set
-new specs
-black scarf
-pink top

ok..dts all i cn tink of..for now...

2008-03-18T01:15:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!
n until now,i still have no idea what to do today...
hmm..maybe a 'me,myself n i' day??

n thx u for all the messages from galfrens n friends!! :)

2008-03-11T07:39:00.000-07:00

i keep ignoring the messages and call....
n i hope you know what it means....
last week of attachment and start planning for my holiday... :)
and im craving for chocolate banana cake from secret recipe again.. *hinthint* :)

2008-03-09T05:36:00.000-07:00

i thought it's already in the past....back in sec school....
but haiz,i cant believe it's happening again...
and it just irks me...
watever...

2008-02-22T23:50:00.000-08:00

im confused with my own feelings...
i just dont understand why i cried like crazy when you told me that....
why?

2008-02-17T22:06:00.000-08:00

Morning!:)

it's so not me to blog in the morning...hahahah
eversince exams start,im too lazy to go out...
stay at home all day....

i just hope this exams are over soon... :)
and i still want a rollercoaster ride.... :)

2008-02-15T23:50:00.000-08:00

I'm sick of playing all of these games
Its not bout taking sides
when I looked in the mirror,
it didn't deliver, it hurt enough to think that I could stop
admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but I got to be strong and leave you behind

-Jordin Sparks,Tattoo...

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i hate physical abuse..
but sometimes i think it's better than emotional abuse...

physical abuse..u feel the pain...u cry and cry..and u shout to stop one day when u cant take it anymore...
u flight or fight..

emotional abuse...u feel hurt..u cry and cry...u keep it to yourself because u think others will never understand u...
u've try to stop it...but u always blame yourself for being in situations that u cant speak up for yourself....after u had enough,u tend to think of abusing yourself physically because u want take away the real pain...
be it cutting wrist,smoking,drinking or anything...
n after that,u feel 'numb'...it's like as if u are a sponge and u absorb all emotional hurt because u know u cant do anything...u keep everything..
when some people were concern about u,u juz say 'it's ok..everything is fine...'
u dont have the courage to confront those people who have hurt u....and always blame yourself wrong....

how are u going to speak up?....finally....
the pain will always be there....
is walk away the best answer?

2008-02-10T10:14:00.000-08:00

i've been listening to 'Makin Aku Cinta' by krisdayanti and her husband the whole day...
i just find the song is super sweet...
and i didnt even bother to open my book..
"GREAT"!!

2008-02-10T01:15:00.000-08:00

i cant sleep...i cant continue to study...
i just feel so restless....now,i fully understand what does it mean by 'rabbit trying to escape from the lungs.'....
all i want right now is to talk...
yes,just talk...
i know this sounds really stupid and pathetic....
but all i want to do right now is talk...speak up what's in my mind....
but who??
who wants to listen to me??
it's bothering me....
family have gone to sleep..and friends...it's kinda late to call them right now...
all i have now is this comp...
i hate all this....

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attachment is over..at last...
IMH and KKH....
both attachment have opened up my eyes...really big..about what's going on in reality..

to me,IMH patients are the nicest people...but people outside have different kinds of view about them..
how irony...
u know another thing what i like about them is their honesty..
they will never lie about their feelings and thoughts...
while the people around us,do you ever think they really honest about what they feel and think about you??
well,you may disagree with me...
but why we gossip? think again....

and KKH...finally...
it's really sad for me....
i've witness abortion...and i couldnt sleep well for days....
maybe it's because i love babies..alot...
and seeing the foetus...just really make me cry...
how i wish i can save them..
but i know i've got no rights...because it's the mother's choice....
i've realise those people who cant have children,keep trying hard to conceive..
while others who can,keep 'killing' their unborn child...

like it or not...
well,this is reality...

2008-01-11T23:21:00.000-08:00

i had a very stupid bad day....

force myself to wake up eventhough im really tired..
luckily,met saleha otw...
come to school for the sake of attendance only...

haiz..im sick n i have 1 more project...
i slept most of the time during discussion....

getting more sick by end of the day...
n some people just made it worse by making me angry...
thanks alot!

2008-01-09T23:50:00.000-08:00

so,my job for open hse 08 is counselling..to attract the students...
seriously,if the girls read this ,they'll sure laugh like crazy....
because 1stly,im known for limited vocab...
my favourite words are 'so?','ok' and etc...
and 2ndly,im not people-friendly..
urgh~totally opposite...
a challenge for me..

so,1st thing to do is to practise smiling in front of the mirror...
maybe im the only person who do this crazy stuff...

good luck for me tomorrow....

2008-01-03T23:30:00.000-08:00

sometimes we will be at a stage where we want to give up everything...
feel that people take us for granted..
feel that they dont realise they keep hurting us eventhough they keep telling that they cant bear to hurt each other...
all we did is just keep crying and try to endure it because we love them...
suddenly we will back to basic where we finally realise that we are just humans and we are not that strong..

how do u feel about this?...

and people always say 'this is life..we have no choice but to go through it...'

is that life all about?

2007-11-24T22:50:00.000-08:00

i feel soo happy today...
it's been a long time since we went out together as a family...
ayah treats us lunch today..
n i wish i brought a camera ..urgh~
mama starts to nag n nag when i read book after i woke up..
no breakfast or a bath..but books..hahhaa..
havent iron the clothes when we suppose to meet ayah ard 1+pm...hahaha

had lunch..im really happy..thx ayah!..
then,we went to somewhere else to buy d cream n had a good massage..hahah

i dont know why but i start to try out the 'love test' machine..
those kind of machines u pay 20cts and u'll get ur ans....hahah
im weird..but it's fun..
but the ans is sooo mepek..hahah..

after that,went shopping again....
n i had mango ice-cream which is really delicious...
ice-cream again!..hahaa

shopping ...shopping..shopping...hahhahah

n yest,sch is great...except that i skip a lec to watch a movie in the lib..hahah
after that,met sya and mas at TM...
i was late....in exchange,treated them ice-cream..
:)
HAIYO!..hahahaha

and im dying of boredom right now...

2007-11-18T22:06:00.000-08:00

so,left me and sis at home while the rest went to 'majlis perkahwinan'...
and i con'd with my part for mental illness project while sis was watching tv...
somtimes projects can be so difficult...
ok..not somtimes..but all the time....

and yat asked for suggestions to buy for a friend..hahaha
so,since the budget is almost the same as saleha ...
and i suggest the same things....
:)

and that's when it started to get dark and rain...
had to stop everyhing and sis wanted me to be by her side all the time as she's afraid of thunder..hahah
she's so cute...
i really love her ALOT!
i mean yes as she's the only sibling i have...
without her,haiz..life will not be interesting and fun eventhough we always fight and shout all the time all the time..
being with her is like i know where i belong...
and one of the people whom i know she'll always love me eventhough no matter how many bitch attitude ive shown her..
and the only person who knows im not ok without telling her eventhough i keep telling her that everything's alright...

well,that's my lil sis...

and yest,i spend most of the afternoon sleeping..haha..
and at night,we had tahlil for arwah nenek...
i miss her..
but like i said,life has to go on...
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i keep thinking and thinking about alot of stuffs....
one prob to another....
everything...
i keep searching for answers that i want to know...
answers to know where i stand....
and i need to make decisions for some of them...
while others,i want to run away and hide...
in my room ..staring blankly at the wall..as if it can give the answer...
most of the time,i just focus on my work..and pretend that everything is alright...
had go through everyday..
day and night..

and finally,i realise i cant pretend anymore...
laughing out loud to keep myself happy?..
when im nt...
i cant pretend that everything is alright when things are not...
because i keep thinkng about it...

happiness..that's all i ask for...

2007-11-16T23:45:00.000-08:00

late for bio lab today..
reach city at 850 and class starts at 9..haiyo..
tinking whether i should just skip or not..but in the end,took the nxt train...
luckily,i went today's class...
because we get to touch the human specimen..yupz..the real ones,finally...
i was scared at 1st..but im curious...

skip psycho lec and had lunch instead with salaha and iza...haha..im so bad...
and saleha was like 'eh..klau tk buat aku ketawa satu hari tk blh?'..hahaha
so,me and the stupid idea play the 'no laughing for 2 mins' game..haaa
but freaklar,everytime,they look at my face,they started to laugh..haiyo..
do i seriouly look like a clown??..hahahaha
and we plan not to laugh the whole day on nxt monday..hahah

had tutorial and saleha asked me to accompany her to buy for her bf's grandma's birthday gift...
i love shopping but it's kinda confusing what to buy for her...
so,went for surveying..and side-tracked to try the accessories..
asked saleha to try the bracelet and bangles...
seriously,she really looks great with it..hhaaha..
but she keeps telling me that she'll never wear it..haiyo
im going to change u..and i bet ur bf will be thanking me for doing it..hahaha

after deciding what to buy for her nenek,we went home...
eventhough it's just a short while but i feel relax from the tests are coming soon..urgh~

study...study....

2007-11-12T07:58:00.000-08:00

woke up just in time to get ready for school...
had set alarm but i didnt even hear it...freak...
feeling down but still force myself to get ready to go to school....

so,yeah..we need to refocus the research method project....
at least we had something to show and discuss today...

3hrs break...
had breakfast cum lunch at mac...
i didnt even finish up chicken nugget meal..so not me...
maybe im gettng sick....
so,kept the rest for eddry since we were having discussion after that...
keep teasing him,mr impotence..hahaha
n i was so kpo that i want to find out who's ronald's crush..hahhaa
hey,i still want to find out...i dont care..haha

im happy that at least 1 project is almost done..yay!
im proud of us...

con'd with lectures ...n lab...

damn it lar...but i hate night class...
so,during the practise time,i sat at one corner n sleep..ahahha...

luckily,class starts late tomorrow...

2007-11-11T06:06:00.001-08:00

i dont know lar..but im sick with everything....
i just wish that life is much simpler..without all this unpredictable and complicated problems...
but that's what life is all about,right?

im physically and emotionally sick right now...

im not trying to complain how hard my life is or whatsoever....

but seriously,i wish life is much simpler ....

tell me everything is alright or maybe i'll just pretend like i always do....

think positive all the time?...yeah right...

2007-11-10T09:09:00.001-08:00

im officially crazy righ now...

thank you ,mas for the excursion..hahahaha....
meet girlfriends at the usual place....

went to spore river...
helping mas with her project.....
feel like as if we are tourist...hahaha
went to ACM....
miss that place...
im not sure about others but i think museum can be a great place to go...

went to one gallery to another...
the exhibitions are very interesting n fun!....haha
from the smallest al-quran to the indian dance...
from the different shapes and sizes statues to the cute tourists [spotted by sya]....hahahaa

after that,mas went on with her interviews with the tourists...and we took pics...
had some late lunch at LJS...
it's been quite a long time since i last ate fish wrap meal..
i still love that food !..

then,took a bus ride to PP...
and did some shopping!!...
bought a nice blue top from DP...i love it...
and then,suddenly,i become crazy...hahaha

i love today!...n how i wish all my girlfriends were there....

i think we all should explore Singapore...
i mean instead of going to the common places ..we can go and explore...
im sure there's alot of places we never go before eventhough our country is just a dot on the map...

n suddenly,i think i need a real boyfriend right now...
okok..Ada is officially crazy...

2007-11-07T07:57:00.001-08:00

sch ended early today...n i was really in a stress mood that i need a shopping break....since my sandal is so end of the world already...

met sya in the bus...

took the same train with saleha to orchard...

waited for mas..she was late...

surveying shoes,slippers n sandals at far east...
and at last,i choose a simple shoe...
but,hahaha...sorry mas...
i took forever to decide the size...
seriozly bingit with my toes...hahahah

after that,went to other place....

haiyo..i cnt stop myself frm laughing sey...
esp that escalator mmt...damn funny....
n that shopping bag...keep hitting everyone..i even hit this guy..hahaha

wanted to show mas the 'race' at raffles place..but too bad .aiyo..

anyway,really had fun today! :)

i wish everyday is like today...

2007-10-24T08:49:00.000-07:00

projects..projects...projects....

n i am sick...haiz... :(

2007-10-11T10:38:00.000-07:00

life is seriously unpredictable......

n school is starting soon....

2007-09-23T00:34:00.000-07:00
i am soooo happy....

but 1st of all,just came back from hospital..fetching my dear grandpa who got admitted yest...
and guess what? he was in ward 47..hahahha..my previous ward....

hmm..some of the patients havent discharged....so long sey....
but im sad because my fav. down-syndromed patient already being discharged....

and the E.N. was complaining to me about the next batch who's having attachment there...
poor thing..some dont even know the difference of a stopper and a plaster....haiyo....

however,i really miss the ward staffs..... :)

and back to the 'i am sooo happy'...
i had 2 ice-creams...YAY!
now,u know that im really an ice-cream freak...hahhaha

went out on friday with rau,sya n fiqhussein after break fast....
had dessert at new zealand....
i was reallly super..super....happy!!!
i had cravings for ice-cream for so long...hahahaha
and i actually thought of tasting all the ice-creams there..hahahah
and fiqhussein is super..super irritating...!! :P
and thanks for the ride home!:)

had family gathering yest..
and after tarawih,my aunt asked who wants ice-cream??"
and guess what?
i was the one who got over-excited...hahahhaha
more than my young cousins....

and we all watching this youtube video about japanese speaking english...
it was really really hilarious....hahahha.
laugh till my stomach hurts...

i just love my cousins! :)

2007-09-20T09:29:00.001-07:00
haiz...having that nausea feeling again...urgh!

really coudnt wake up for sahur...
i guess im getting sick....

sis called around 730am...
and she wanted me to send her uniform to her school
she forgot...and wanted to send by 10am..
urgh!

after sending her uniform,went to clinic for checkup....

and then,fetch mama and went shopping..YAY!
i finally got the cash to buy my 'love at first sight' shoe that ive been eyeing...
but too bad,there's no size 8 for the black one...
urgh!
i still want the black one!

went to bazaar....
and saw quite alot of kebab stalls....
i love kebab..hahahah
and what's with all those kebayas.....
it's not that i dont like kebaya but i prefer baju kurung....

so,finally,we bought mama's and sis's.....

i hate the nausea feeling...
so,i didnt go for the iftar at madr....
thought of not going to madr..
but change my mind since ive got nothing to do at home...
so,i just went for the lesson....

fadhilah tried to open up a conversation with me..
talked about attachment life...since we both in the same course...
but i wasnt really into it...
fadhiah is a nice girl..
it's just that im sick of hearing attachment experiences right now....

oh freak,i think im having that '' im sick so dont bother me' attitude.....
im such a mean girl.....

ive been eating and drinking lots of sour stuff to kill the nausea feeling..
but too bad,it didnt work..
any suggestions?

2007-09-18T20:10:00.000-07:00

im sick...sick....sick...
having that nausea again....
and im weak..probably the effect of yest's vomitting....
im bored..and i miss school....

and i need something to keep myself busy...
if not,i'll become crazy and my brain will start dysfunctioning....
and i definitely miss my girlfriends....

i want to go out....
girlfriends,let's go out!

and now,i feel like baking....haha

i am seriously weird....

2007-09-18T09:21:00.001-07:00
By the time i woke up for sahur,everyone had finished eating....
only my mom cleaning up the table and stuff....
i was lucky because sis woke me up at 5 am...
still have about 30 mins....
while eating,i kept thinking why i could wake up late when i purposely slept in the living room...
watever....

took a nap to wait for azan subuh...
when my dear little sis waking me up to help her....
to iron her school uniform...
but i just pretend to sleep when she was like ' kak...kak...bangun plz....nilam dh lambat ni....gosokkan baju adek...plz.plz...'
hahahahhah...
i am such a ' good' sis....
and the way she pleaded is like as if 'ini antara hidup dan mati'...hahahahhaha

she gave up and straight away took her towel and went to bathe....and i quietly iron her uni...
who doesnt love her own sis??
and by the time she came back...
she gave me that ' i really going to kill u but im relieved ' look....hahhahahah
i love my dear little sis....hahahahah

chat with salwa....miss her lar....
want to go out with her and iqah but as usual we are so lazy..haiyo...
maybe 1 day..another girl's day out....

just wondering why do a high IQ guy can even make use of someone he loves??
treated her as if she's like a doll....
throw her away when he doesnt need her anymore...
this type of guy is what im afraid to be with....

but yet,this small corner of my heart still care for you.....

2007-09-17T06:14:00.001-07:00
had a great time with the kental mamas and sya...hahhahahah
went to sya's house....
and we communicate through msn as she was in the living room while i was at the study corner...hahhaha...
our kentalness....

then,mas the kpo came..hahhahah...
d/l songs and bully mas....hhahahahha
sya n i really love it!!
kekasih gelapku....hhaahaha

__________________________

attachment is over.....
it's one of the best i had after paediatrics,obstetrics and ward 38....

we always gt busy with all the wounds dressings,injections and lots of things....
good and bad experiences....

lots of eye-opener about diabetes patients......
and the heartaches..thanks to the year ones...
i hope they'll improve ..not MIA all the time like what they always do to us....

and i love our CI aka Mr Teddybear....
he's the best..very friendly and helpful...

i have lots of stories...
about the drug abuser who's afraid of needle,those smokers,down-syndromed patient,fierce patients,gatal patients,the most lazy and unhygienic patient and the 'child-like' patients...

i really get fed up with those people who still want to smoke in the hospital eventhough it's not allowed....
it's not only because that it's a healthy way but it's because hospital is full of oxygen...
when fire meet oxygen,what do we get???
it's the obvious.....

and the best patient?
it's the down-syndromed....
i like him....
very innocent ...and he always finished his food...
and we all tried to do some rehab to him...and in the end,he can eat himself......YAY!

One thing what i learnt being a nurse is to love everyone equally and accepting each other.......

but i still love my down-syndromed patient...hahahaha
hope he get well soon..... :)

real love...

2007-09-08T08:46:00.000-07:00
i am seriously tired.....
and i've been sleeping alot eversince nenek passed away....
and i know it's not a good sign....

i cant keep continue crying....
she wont come back even my eyes filled with blood tears....
i have no choice but to be strong to accept the fate....
no use crying because she'll always be in our mind and heart...
and life...has to go on....

i've only have 1 regret...
i never tell her how much i love her....
however,i always show my love by kissing her cheek....
and i had my last when i saw her lying there in the bed...
eyes closed and stiff...
tears filled up my eyes eventhough i've been trying hard to control my emotions...
my lips felt cold when i kissed her unlike the warmth i always felt whenever i met her...

i'll always love you,nenek....

girlfriends were there when i really need them the most....
i love you girls and thank you so much.....

and the work really make me focus to do my best for the patients' health
and not to think about the sadness...

like i said,life has to go on....

2007-08-13T11:10:00.000-07:00
guess what?...

i just start studying after 4 days of unofficial holidays...hahahaha....

i really have no mood after all those tests and projects...

but now,no choice...i have to push myself...

cant wait for the holidays after attachment..that'll be like nxt month...urgh~...

i spent my unofficial holidays doing notes for exams,eating,sleeping,reading novels and obviously,meeting girlfriends....i really miss them..and i always look forward meeting them...they are the best! after my family ,of course...

met them for dinner at simpang last friday..and i had this freaking menses cramps...of all time...but made it...hahahhaa...
we laughed like crazy...talking about secondary school's life...those moments were the best...i really miss being crazy and weird with the mad scientist hair...hahahaha...no wonder i had no boyfriends back then..hahhaa...maybe the guys were scared of my mad scientist hair with the weird attitude..hahhaha...ok,that's lame....

and miss iliyana wanted to show a magic trick which was so funny because 'tk menjadi'...hahhaah..so 'paisey'.....

and i ordered mee hoon tom yam cost $6...i was abit surprised because i thought it should be ard $4...anyway,it's ok..luckily,i brought extra cash...

and i had weird dream last night...

so,good luck for exams!...and i cant wait for our next meeting,girls..hahhaha

2007-07-20T22:37:00.000-07:00
3 wks of attachment...at last,it's over....
however,this attachment is really an eye opener for me....
for what is like to be in a motherhood world.....

for the 1st 2 weeks,i was in kk hospital for paediatrics attachment..or another word ,children.....from newborn to 16 years old.....
taking care of sick children.....
i really pity them esp the newborns...
for the 1st 2 months,the babies shouldnt get sick esp after they drank the very 1st sip of the mother's milk which is full of anti-bodies....
so,i bathe and feed them....
they are the cutest human ever....hahhaha.....
however,was quite bored because there were limited things we can do...
so,i just played with them the whole day....
and carried the ones who kept crying and crying.....
my arms are going to die soon ..hahaha...imagine those who want to keep being carried and put them to sleep....
i miss royshius and rui qi....my darling toddlers...hahhaha....
they cried alot...really alot...but once they started to smile,i just dont know why...but i felt warmth in my heart....

since there were limited things to do,i just kept reading the case notes and learnt new things every day.....

2nd week was even better....
cases about teenagers...no...not the abortion cases...but those rebelious cases....
very...very interesting.....from child-parent problems to drug abuse......
okok...its just an everyday issue that is nvr ending ...
but i was curious...
i even tried to put myself in their shoes...
trying to find out exactly why they rebel....because of freedom???
but i just dont understand why there must be a rebel for freedom when we can just sit and discuss together with our parents like what i did....
ya,all of us come from different background.....
maybe i shouldnt compare us....

and...and i made a new friend....a minah rep...hahhaha....
she was nice though......
but when i get to know her better,i realise a lot of things....
a minah rep = trying being jambu,young age,boyfriends and marriage...
her life and my life are really different but it's interesting to know what's her thinking....
maybe...maybe i really shouldnt compare us but instead accepting one another....
ya,accepting ppl is what ive learnt......

so,for the 2 weeks attachment is fun....
yeah,physical diseases are interesting but not as the psychiatric ones....
ya,i was more interested in the psychiatric cases....

the last week was in sgh...obstetric attachment...
another eye opener .....

so,on tues ,i had a test...to bathe the newborns...those babies who were only few hours old to 1-2 days old....
i was scared at 1st....ya lar....they are super precious and fragile....
in the end,it was ok....
the whole day was in the nursery....
taking care of the newborns really made me happy for that day...
so,i feed,carried and change their nappies...

ok..here's the weird thing...
whenever i carried them to stop their crying and carried them till they sleep,i feel as if im a mother....
the feeling is very nice...

and i witness a woman in labor....
tell you that i cant describe the feeling...
it was such a miracle thing....
the baby come out...the 1st cry....the parents' expression.....
it was a blessing......

so,i took care the postnatal mommy....
seeing them in pain and weak after the delivery made me to love mama even more.....
all this time,i always heard stories about the pain and happiness...
but i really believe after i witness all this things and took care of the newborn.....

it was really a blessing.......

2007-06-30T20:35:00.000-07:00
thought of slacking at home one last time before attachment....
let me have my rest first lar..but too bad..i cant

auntie wati came with cik zainal in the morn...
cnt go out of the room bcz i havent bathe..hahha
then,ard 12+,sis begged me to help her poster..and she's need it to day at 5pm...mepek kn..haiyo....
so,i thought i would laze ard 1st but too bad cik ilham and family came with food....
abg hakim had graduated....congrats......

help to serve the food and did sis's poster while she siap2 to go for tuition.....

so,i thought i want to watch dvd after mama and ayah kluar for jemputan...
but too bad,ive to accompany mama to jemputan while ayah went to visit nenek....haiyo....

so,it's mama's sec sch gd friend's son's wed....
it's quite interesting as the bride is a korean....

but seeing mama and her friends chatted is interesting too...
they teased each other 'tua' and complained cz they've feel some weak in their body....
hahhaha......
it's like they were still in sec sch but in 50's....
their bond is strong..yeah...eventhough each of them have work and family commitments and they dont meet that often,they were so happy....
and i imagine us,freakoz, in our 50's...r we still together by that age?..life is unpredictable...

1 thing what i dont like about makciks2...
they sure will ask 'dah kahwin..?dah berpunyer?..biler nak kahwin?'..haiyo....
but cant blame them lar...
cz most of them married at a young age while mama at a later age...
and they teased mama to wait long long to feel what it is like to be 'mak pengantin'....
ya lar..their eldest children are like in late 20's and 30's while me, 18...hahhahaha
they complained of tired and too bz to even eat....hahhaha...

and the funny part of the whole conversation is they were talking and guessing whether their teachers have died or not...hahahhahha....that was funny sia...
it was coincidence as the bride's mother looks like 1 of their teachers....
now,i know what mothers talk when they meet each other...hahahahha

so,mama told me that they are mama's members like me and freakoz..
they even name ' 4 black mondok'..
what's with that name sia...
then,i understand...
'4 black mondok went to bedok...esp bedok corner to meet pak kadok'
and they laughed ..must be some funny memories...
i wanted to ask what's that about ...
but i think there's no need to ask...

maybe some memories are best kept within ourselves......
life is great to have that friends...they keep you away from your daily stress....and you think it's just a short time when you realise it's time to go.....

2007-06-29T19:19:00.000-07:00
today is damn funny ...hahhahha
kecoh,stress,curhat,angry,laugh n be famous for the day.....

i really dont want to go to sch today..cz know y?
ive gt only 1 tut .....
n..n...that atok eddry forgot to msg us to bring the green book...
pls resign!..at least it's much better than 'you're fired'...
pls..pls..pls........

went for lunch..n decided to try the new indian stall...
haiyo..the queue was confusing...
n we actually stand there like idiots...hahhhah....

having lunch is like the best time to have girl's talk..
like i said,girls talk never get boring....
and i've got this imagination run wild inside my head...and laugh like hell..hahhaha

and cikgu tk pakai baju kurung nari....hahahha...

on the way to the lab,a girl blocked me while i was talking to saleha...
n i 'scolded' her....hahhha...
Ada is getting more and more crazy....haiyo
just dont know y but i think 'scolding' strangers is fun...hahhaa..ok..watever Ada.....

practise cpr cz test date is around the corner......
haiyo...my blowing is not good....maybe my mouth is too small to cover the mouth?????
even the lecturer laughed at me yest.....
eve teased to practice on bf's mouth...
ya,as if i have one...hahhahahahh
and i tease james alot..i love making him blush until he feels so shy and ask me to stop..hahhahaha
i think he looks cute when he blush......
but now,he's getting clever ...dh pandai kenekn org balik....not fair....
and....and last time he told me that im too young to be in poly...hahhahaha.....
so mepek...

went for briefing for kkh attachment..
yay!..seriously,im really excited ...i cnt wait to take care of the babies!!!.....hahahhaha
new born babies...so small and fragile...
after that,we had to wait for ms asmah...
and while waiting,saleha and i watched 'free movie' frm someone's laptop..
[we stand quite far bhind them...hahaaha]

do research at the lib comp instead at the comp lab with saleha....
then,there's this guy told us that he had booked the comp while i was doing my research....[ya,we have to book to use the comp lib]
so,i gave my most kesian look and asked for a few mins....
luckily,that guy is nice.....hahhahahha....

waiting for saleha...and im suppose to be angry with her but instead i laughed ..haiyo...

haiyo..im super crazy today...hahahahha

2007-06-27T09:45:00.001-07:00
it's oready wed...few more days to attachment....
now,manage to puase for 2 days..so,6 more to go....insyaallah....
i just donoe y but i miss going lecture...hhahaha
i mean now,somtimes i just have only 1 class per day..mepek kn...
except for fri...the worse day ever.....

gt back bio result just nw..eventhough i gt better than what i expected ...but still not good as last sem...i thought i just gt an average coz the paper was harder than what i thought.....anyway,alhamdulillah....

n i tink ive becoming someone's unofficial p.a..hahhaha..haiyo....
n the gals better nt curse me eh...
before u gals curse me..ask urself 1st whether if u were me,do u want to be that someone's gf?....hahahahh....
omg,im so bad...haahha

2007-06-23T00:29:00.000-07:00
i know this sounds weird...but is there anyone want to accompany me to go to the asian civilisations museum??

2007-06-22T11:16:00.000-07:00
sometimes i just wonder......
should i give myself a chance???

leadership project

2007-06-21T08:47:00.000-07:00
hey girls...these are the videos ive found.....

1: what would you do if you're hitler?
[i think this video is suitable for the last 10 mins presentation...any suggestions?]

2:this is the 1st speech hitler made..

3:this is when hitler shows his autocratic leadership.....

2007-06-20T09:56:00.000-07:00
i just dont understand why i am feeling like this....

just gt a news that my friend's dad died recently..
and the most saddest part,he died on father's day....

it really makes me cry...haiz....

so,cherish your loved ones before they go....

2007-06-17T05:28:00.001-07:00
at last my hands are in much better condition to type...
did nothing today except eat and sleep...
just dont know why....but ive no mood to do any projects....eventhough im worried for medical-surgical project.....
when are we going to start,atok eddry?
this guy always make me angry almost everyday.....until iza pn cannot tahan with our stupid arguments...
he's fault lar...name je leader..but always...no comments...
and make me to call him 'abang' just because he's one year older...watever.....
and his fringe .....eeeeiiiiii....

saturday
did nothing also... atok went back to kampong.....
but didnt send him to the airport...
only mama and nenek did.....

friday
girls' day out with salwa and iqah.....
watch 'men in white' again...hahhahaha....
still funny lar but the impact was not the same as the 1st time i watched with the cousins......
at 1st,they got cheated that it was a horror movie...[movie suggested by me]
hahahhaa.....
lyk duh,how can i suggest a horror movie when i hate horror movie ?
hahahhaha
had lunch at bk...sal was super hungry...haahhaha.....
saw sal's bf..so coincidence sey...hahahha......
and iqah made a confession...hahaah..itupn we made her do that...hahhaha
and then,we dont know where to go....so,another suggestion...
dessert at mac...
ok....here's my confession.....i ate ice-cream....urgh..cant tahan lar....haiyo...
mission failed.....
well...and then,i got sleepy....sorry...hahahha....

and the funny part was when they kept asking me is there any new guy i know?...hahhaa
when i said no...they kept asking...haahhaha....
my poor friends....
i know you cant wait for the time i finally got my 1st boyfriend ,right?....hahahha
welll....i cant lie to the fact sometimes i do wish for a boyfriend.....
to me,a relationship means commitment,trust and love......
but too bad,until now,im not ready for any relationship.....

watched APM.....
uncle heard imran ajmain sings for the 1st time...and he liked his songs..
and even wanted to buy his album..hahaha...
wow-imran nw has a new fan from indo...hahahhaa
and he even laughed at his own son calling 'botak'..when he went up to the stage with the bhumiband gang...hahaha...haiyo...

thursday
went back to sch....for leadership project
i think the only time i talk.alot when im a leader.....at least not bad wt...cz galfrens always complain that im too shy even to talk to strangers....hahhaha
anyway,its just a short meeting..went home 1st before heading to sya's house....
they were scared of my 'sun-burnt' hands and neck....hahhaha
yay-...bullied mas..and she cant do anything to me...hahaha....
like i said,revenge is always sweet...haahhaha

wednesday
went to bedok jetty with uncle and adek after subuh....
do what?..FISHING!!!!
hahhaa....new experience.....
ive always love the feeling when we try something new....
excited and nervous....
so we went to the 'not so many ppl' part to do some training....must trained 1st wt....
during training,suddenly felt something pulling my rod...
hahaha..i was so scared and excited...
guess what fish.?
ikan parang ...hahaha......
my first ever fish.....
ok..here's the thing..im so weird....
during that time,many ppl tried to fish ikan tamban [smal fish]
but i caught ikan parang [big fish]...im so weird....
after some trainng,went to the 'alot of ppl' part....
tried to fish ikan tamban...
caught a few 1st...oh gosh,i hate it sey....
there's alot of fish...like u feel u want to use jala....

well..i feel calm with the views...lawa sey....
the clouds were beautiful....regret sey tk bwk camera.....
and i saw the most beautiful rainbow ive ever seen....
most of the time,i only see 1 part of the rainbow....but this time,i can see the full semicircle rainbow.....from 1 end to another...with the clouds....and sea...
can u imagine it?...it was really beautiful......

so,it rained later...scary sey..cz hujan angin....
after that ,fish again...hahhaha.....
and caught lots of fish...hahahha..happy sey....
and we fished till 8pm...
tiring and with lots of sun-burnt [eventhough i wore sun block]
however,it was really a great day.....

2007-06-11T08:21:00.000-07:00
woke up really early today...to help out my aunt at her workplace...
kind of last min thingy but since ive no plan yt for this wk...so,y nt?
sis also wanted to follow.hahah..kpo..i know she's really bored at home....
met the rest of the cousins at bdk int....

me,aan n iwan in one cab...
iwan kept teasing me dt ive gt a boyfriend...haiyo....
n we all were surprised when we found out that the 3 of us have never been in a relationship before...hahahhaa
and because the same reason.....hahaha
singles unite!.hahahah..watever.....

so,help out ard....with the books...n others stuffs...
haiyo,but i didnt get to work at the counter side...i love working at the counter..writing the receipt as fast as i could n counting lots of money....
hahaha..those funny mmts i had.....

mas msg me dt fathy ajak kluar...hhahahha
fathy ajak kluar sey....but too bad,i dont know what time i finishlar.....

so,i had to 'escort' all those sesat students who didnt know where their class is....
1st day of tution wt.....
up and down the stairs....up and down....up and down....
dt time,i really thought that i can lose weight....hahhaaha

work finished earlier than i thought...
then,we all decided to have eat n someone suggest a movie...at princess since it's cheaper...n we decided to watch 'men in white'......
it was seriously lame but funny...
so very local...
it's really funny ...hahaha
and i think i want to watch again lar...hahahahah...

went home and mas msg me again..hhahahah.....
lazy to go out since i just reach home..hahaha....

2007-05-26T08:39:00.001-07:00
hey..hey..hey..
hahaha..
at last,ive bought a keyboard..hahah.....
yey!

anyway,tests are around the corner...haiyo..
clinical teory had just past...
left with clinical prac and bio prac....
studying soon....

haiz...miss freakoz lar... and ..and k14 too...kluar during 2 wks hls k?....
irah and ili ,no excuse this time...
ada lyk is so fierce..hahaha.....

nohing much happening today...
wanted to study...but i cnt lar cz the weather is too hot....
[i only study at nite...]
so take a nap...since im too lazy to do anything ...
ard 6+pm...ask sis to accompany me to eastpoint...buy this keyboard.....
and earpiece....
had dinner at ljs...the food there nt bad sey....
wnt home...

hmm...friday...
1st tut:bio...nth much...except understand what the lecturer tried to explain...
i tink he's much better than mr sann...
but i tink bth r cute..hahah
lyk i cn see their passion towards bio....
nxt,health socio...
haiyo...i understand the whole concept oready..bt the lecturer was so exaggerating sey....

had break....
had gals talk..gals talk nvr gt boring lar....
n i was really surprised by hafsah's conffesion...
well..in other words,it makes me understand more abt her....
eventhough she has different perception abt relationships.......
n saleha talk abt this patient whom im close with last attachment....
haiz...i miss that guy sey....
i really pity him...and his words really touched me ...
sort of giving me encouragement me to pursue my studies n work at IMH.....

nxt ,leadership..
had to build a 'shelter'..
i gt really fed up with the xiao wei n her fren....
when we ask for suggestions,they juz say no....
so,we used our idea [me,saleha,iza]..
biler tgh buat,xiao wei n her fren did their own using their idea....
so we asked them,n they so excitedly tell us their idea which is so similar to us.....
mepek sey....
gt really fed up sey.....
kental....
y must i work with u gals when u just ignore me as a leader.....?
i dn care lar if u r more creative or clever than me...cz i accept ur suggestions n discuss with the rest....
but what the use of me being a leader if u just ignore me n my plan??..
im nt those autocratic leader lar....
im nt dt evil sey....
if u want to be the leader,just say so during the 1st wk...haiyo....
so pathetic ...

after dt,had 2 hrs break...n met senior syafiq....
dn,my last class of the day,practise n practise for clinical prac...so scared sey..haiz....

i just hope i cn pass this tests ....insyaallah....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.016-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.015-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.014-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.013-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.012-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.011-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.010-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.009-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.008-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.007-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.006-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.005-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.004-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.003-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.002-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-05-15T21:45:00.001-07:00
hey..at last im blogging...hahha.....
cnt help it lar...too bz with school stuff now....

phew...1st project is done..yey-...
bt im still nt satisfied with it since we gt alot of comments from the lecturer....
anyway,we r proud with it....

bt we still have more projects to be done...

all this week,alot of laughing n 'quarreling' going on..haha....
all thx to eddry....haha...
too bad i cnt kick out my bad habit..hahaha

n i skipped 1st tut yest..due to my pathetic stupidity....
luckily,saleha was late too....haha...

hmm...being in 2nd yr...alot of true colour of ppl.... ishishis
talk abt it nxt time....

n anywae,i met freakoz n gang last fri...
rindu sudah terubat...hahah
n mas...as usually carik chance to bully me....
-read her blog-
haiyo....

2007-04-17T21:47:00.001-07:00
im so sick n really tired...haiyo....
n im having period n im wearing white...dts so 'great'...
wanted to sleep during bio lec..bt cannot lar...cz of the 'hint-hint'......
hmm...later i blog abt de last wkends k....

ok..so , back to sch...yr 2 oready...
great?..nope..panic....n need to b more focus.....
bcz of projects...
n 1 module...i was even 'voted' to b the leader....
haiyo...
padan muke me...my stupidity....
so,group A wich is my grup were discussing with the infants problems..wn i suddenly blurted out 'lets vote for leader!!'...
n they sae 'ok dn...u..'
i was lyk ape je..n laughin cz i noe i wont b one
bt wn,de lecturer asked who's the leader...they were all looking at me...
so,no choice ...had to volunteer...hahaaha....

i tink all bio lecturer r klakar seram...
they were serioz n monotone bt yt,nnti at 1 time,suddenly,they make us laugh..weird....
hmm....
psycho still fun..bt more confusing lar.......
n..n...andy is teaching us psycho for tut again..yey!
well...the clinical?....more complicated ....

ok dn...need to go for lec nw...con'd later.....

2007-04-05T10:52:00.000-07:00
im relieved eventhough it really hurts...
im happy everything is clear now eventhough ive lost nt only someone i like bt a good friend...
however,im glad everything is over....
ive learnt n realised a lot of things when i had this prob....
ya,i know...i like to think far,rite?
About friendship,love,accepting other ppl and appreciate them....
ive realised how imp to accept other ppl who make 'mistakes' by having a crush on him/her....
about how friends accept each other no matter what happen...
this person has made me realise how much freakoz n gang means alot to me....
ya,we all gt loves probs with each other,rejecting others' love and being rejected....
bt yet,we all still gd friends and able to accept each other...
ya,i know i like only gd guys....
bt nw,ive realise there's a gd soul...even much better in bad guys....
thx to him,ive learnt to accept ppl....
bt,im nt sure of the defination of 'gd' guys.....
praying 5 times a day can prove someone he's d gd guy
or is it the bad one with a gd soul??
all i hope is someone who appreciate me of who i m and accept me no matter wat happen...

hmm...

2007-04-03T01:28:00.001-07:00
hey...it's been a long tym since i last blog...
wanted to blog last 2 days bt instead my comp gt spoilt too bad...
n yest,as i just wanted to reformat everytin,my comp gt back as per normal..hhah....
so happy n seriozly weird miracle...haha..alhamdulillah...

so,since my keyboard is also spoilt..so i decide to blog at my couz's hse..haha..thx...

so, 020407
met rau n sya at bdk to accompany rau to hair salon...
n dn,strait to sya's hse...
dey decide to rent this dvd ..abt horror i tink...
luckily the shop is closed....haha..thx god....
i hate horror movies...
so,we watch this youtube video abt the staff jam..
haha..it was so funny sey esp we were caught in the act for laughing out loud abt this brown gal aka khid's gf..haha
n..n did i mention that the guitarist is great?..haha..n handsome..haha...
then mas the kental came...n she update her blog n tease me in her blog..i really hate her sey..haha
while i decide to watch mtv..the sweet 16 show is funny sia..
esp abt the gal...she's so bimbo...
bt her party was hmm..great..i tink...
so,the funny part is that when she's introducing her dad's hse..n into the toilet..
n she doesnt even know the urinal..haha...i was lyk 'then slame ni where did u pass urine??..in the bush??'..haha..she 's so dumb...
n during the party she danced this hip hop dance..bt she didnt rehearse..so everytin went wrong..n people started to boo...
after the dance,odw to the room,she sae 'phew..that was good..'
hahah..omg..that's so perasan of her sia...
i coundnt stop laughing at her sey...
haha...too mepek abt bimbo...
after that,we waited for mas to finish to update her blog n went home....

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hmm..did nth actually except catching up wif sleeping....too tired...
hmm..some aunts n uncle came over...

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hmm...went to watch sya's sis jamming at the lib esplanade....
wow..great performance i must say....
the whole band is great...
n esp the guitarist ..haha...
he was great...n did i mention handsome?..haha....
but the most funny part was when we were all laughing non-stop abt this brown girl....haha..
really funny sey esp the way she sway her head and clap her hands ...haiyo...im so bad...
esp when she shouted 'raymond!!!' when indra asked her what's her name during the ques n ans game..haha...okok..stop it...
ada is a bad gal...
after that me,sya,rau,mas,2 fiqs,khid n ghaz went to simpang to eat..
n they were so funny sey..esp when they teased me alot..haha..
n how syafiq describe the way i eat...
i'll be so quiet when i eat...
n they laughed cz they tot i really concentrate in my food..haha..mepek sey...
n then kak faizah sent us home....
i mean all of us...
n everyone cramp into the car
oops..i mean em..
haha
i just sat on the front seat comfortably..
haha
tular panggil org gemok lagi kn..haha
the advantage of being fat...
haha..it's really great being with them..
i was really myself..
laughin so much at the jokes eventhough the jokes are abt me..haha
i really enjoy myself..
n sya,if ur sis perform again,call me..haha
cz i tink its a nw exposure for me cz im nt really into music...
ya,it was great!!... 2 thumbs up...
esp the vocalist sang this korean song which i really luv...!!

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went out with iqah and sal...
hmm...miss them alot..haha
it's been like 2 years since the last time we went out together..haha
so,initially ,bugis..bt iqah decided to go to marina square...
so jln2 n ate at ljs..
seriozly,i really hate the service there..
really bad....
really really really bad.....
bedok is even better...
and then,we con'd jln2 n salwa suddenly miss her bf..
so,we decided to go back to bedok so that i can pay my bills while salwa can meet her bf for a while..
after that,me n iqah went to mac..cz we were so thirsty n we con'd to talk ..haha..to catch up things n even sempat curhat..haha...
and then sal came back..n took pics...
n went home...

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nth much .....

hmm..lets talk abt chalet nw...haha

1st day: went ard 5pm plus..cz need to marinate the chicken n i have to wait for mama as she went out for a while....
met naz odw...
n i hate naz cz he's such a naggie guy...
he nagged at me from pasir riz int to the chalet non-stop just bcoz the plastic nk dekat koyak..haiyo...
the girls dh sampai except for ili....
n we met tom the cat...haha....mas sae its a kitten bt it looks quite big to me.....
so,pity the cat for being hungry..
n im so slenger dti gave it choc cake n mas started to nag..haha
lyk how m i suppose to know what to give to a cat ecxept for cat food n fish???....
i dn have any cat at home....
dn,me irah n mas went to cheer to buy cat food..
n ate ice cream...yum..yum...
bt no cat food
so,went back to gt ready for bbq....
during bbq,n when i was tryin to mix the garlic n margerine to make garlic bread..
they surprised me n irzuan with a birthday cake..haha...
they baked they cake..haha..
so sweet of them...
haha..
sang brithday song n cut the cake..
and mas sae it's true...a weird birthday surprise for a weird person..haha
luckily ,wan's nt weird...
it's true..i cut the cake with a jack knife n smell of garlic..haha..weird...
open up the prezzie...n took pics..haha
gt a top shop green top by gals...
and a brooch from the guys..haha
thx u so much ,freakoz n gang..
i really love everytin....
im sure wan too..haha
after the bbq,went back to the room and lepak..watch tv....
n ard 10 plus ,went home with khid,faris and ili....

2nd: i cnt wake up..haha..still tired sey...
so,ard 12 noon,i reached there...
play scrabble...
oh gosh...im really bad in playing scrabble...
n then,con'd with uno...
n went down with the gals n ice cream again..haha
i luv ice-cream...
when we went back,our room door is locked n had to call the one in charge...
n i was getting sleey...
n after everytin went back as pernormal,went into the room n sleep...
as i was tryin to sleep ,fiq slammed on me...haiyo...
gt shocked sey...haha.....
n he even took a video out of it.....haiyo..
after dt,we just lepak2 n i went home.....

phew...well dts for nw..haha

happy birthday

2007-03-20T10:18:00.000-07:00
i know it's been a long time since my last blog...
hmmm....anywae,happy belated birthday for me ..im 18 already..hahah...
getting older n hope wiser...ya,right...

so,i hope i'll be more mature n act like an 18 year old should be...and also be more civilised [that's what syahirah abdul latiff wants me to be]....

hmm...so on the eve of my birthday,nothing much happen...visit my grandma in the hospital ...most of my family were there ...perhaps because it's weekends...
after that,thinking where to have dinner...my treat...hahaha
sis was so getting on my nerves....she 's so picky when i suggested the place....
so,got fed up n asked her where she wanted to eat...
to me,any place would be ok if it's clean n gd food...
so,decided to eat at alfiah...clean place n great food...
n also nearby from our home as ayah's getting tired n it's really late....

on my birthday,i know we were going to have a small gathering to celebrate my birhday,my couz's,my parents' anni n my grandparents' 60th anni....
so,clean the house n help mama....
n i found out that my aunt wanted to surprise me by baking a birthday cake and my fave spagetti ....thx to my dear couz for spoiling th surprise....hahaha...
so,ayah baca some doa n then,we ate...yum..yum..haha...
i am getting fatter..haha
after that,we juz relax n open up my present..hahah

thx for the wonderful gathering....
thx for all dose birthday msgs ...they are really sweet.... :)

2007-03-09T23:33:00.000-08:00

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2007-03-09T11:33:00.000-08:00

WEIRD PPL

2007-02-26T18:34:00.000-08:00
y do i always meet alot of weird ppl????
after i reach frm work,i gt a call by this job agency....
that caller is so mepek...
after saying hello..she asked me what job am i interested in....
i was lyk 'what the hell is she talking about????'
clueless sia....
and i keep asking her y she asked me that question...
all she said were 'we are from the job agency..obviously,we are asking what job are you interested in....'
i was lyk 'ape yg die mepek ni...'
at 1st,i thought it was a prank call...but she really sound serious....
so,i told her that i am still a student and i am not looking for a job...
and all she said 'ooo...maybe someone gave a wrong no....'
and i just hang up....mepek sey

after a few mins,i gt another call from the same no..
it's a guy this time....
at least,he was more polite than the other caller....
he too asked the same question..but at least in details....
he said that i applied for the job quite long ago...and they still have my resume.....
when did i apply???
noe when?
last year january....
i was lyk ' ade ke aku apply?'
at 1st,i thought it was the bond form i sent to cgh....
bt suddenly,i remembered when he told me i went for the interview at suntec....
haiyo..i did apply for the job with Sya and her couz at suntec last year....

WOW-I DIDNT KNOW IF U APPLY FOR A JOB,THEY'LL CALL A YEAR LATER...
so i told him lar that i was waiting for my o level results that time..but now,i am schooling...
so,he asked me what's my school n course to add details for the resume...
so what job they offer me??
a cashier in the east area....
anyone interested???

mepek sey....
anyway,i am working now...
$10 per day....for 3 wks....

1st day at work...haiz...im so blur....
im nt on the mood of working....
i want my holiday....!!!

2007-02-07T12:05:00.000-08:00
hey..in skool rite nw..n having 4 hrs break...

surfing the net for sponsorship...maeb i tink i ready to apply for one....
bt still no idea wich hospital....

anywae,really stress..haiz...cz of exams ....i heard a lot of students fail during tiz tym..haiz....scary sey....
i dn wan to repeat 6 mths....

im really tired n sleepy ..no mood to study...haiz

2007-02-04T07:52:00.001-08:00
slept really late last nite...so i tot of con'd to have my beauty sleep after subuh...
bt in the end ,mama woke me up n telling me to cook mee goreng for breakfast...

'wt?..did i hear wrongly?'...nope ...i didnt....

haiyo...the last time i cook a real meal was long time ago...
ask mama wts the ingredients...bt she too bz with my sis...

so,had to trust my instincts...haha....

alhamdulillah,it turned out ok....

after dt,con'd to sleep...too sleepy sey

2007-01-28T23:38:00.000-08:00
had a bz dae todae...

bt 1stly i wud lyk to wish a big happy birthday rau-d n fiq lehan....hehe...
no fair...dey r oready 18...
i still hav to mths to go...haha

met couz aan under the blk..hiaz...no mood to wake up sey...
call couz nurul to meet later...she brought her lil sis too....
so,obviozly took mrt to yck....
hmm..nt really crowded...maeb bcz it's the last day...
took the goody bag n went to the booth b4 proceed to the blks....
went to business 1st...
bt mcm tkde pape sey...
so proceed to health science blk....
brought em to the 'wards' ....
esp the labor prt....
poor aan...he feels nausea n dizzy as the gal expalin to him the labor process while showin the manequin...
haha..too bad aan...u cnt b a doc...
after dt,proceed with the rest...
im really lyk a tour guide today....
walkin while explainin to em....
i luv the design skool...somtyms i juz wonder whether im in the right course or nt....
n i really luv the engineerin blk....
the rooms r so spacious....really big...

had lunch...n rush to the airport while they went home....
met irah,sya n mas at the bengawan solo...
n celebrate the birthday at the viewing mall...
very nyce....hehe....
fiq n rau open their presents....
n khid was brave enough to ask the foreigners to take pics of us...hehe...

n irah told me dt she's attached wif dt alfiz guy...
was surprised sey...after all dose tings dt happenin to her...
im hapy for her..at last she found her happiness with the one she loves...

after dt,went to play pool...
had a mtch against mas..i teamed up with naz...
lucky naz main...
if me n mas aje,bsok pn tk abes...haha....

after dt,went home...

well...had fun todae...eventhough quite tiring...rushing here n there...
i really luv freakoz n gang...ya,evendough they luvs to buli me...
n evendough somtyms im really quiet wn im wif em...
it's nt dt im bored with em..bt it's juz me...

bt today,no fair sey..
i had to promise to mas dt i'll nvr irritate her anymore...
bt she alwaes buli me...no fair...
nvr mind...i'll alwaes irritate her esp wn she's really bz...muahaha

2007-01-23T22:16:00.000-08:00
had bio prac...bt moz of the time used up for group 1 n 2 presentation...
theirs r really gd.....
im worried abt ours...

n this thurs is our 1029 presentation....

had only 20 mins break...n saw husniati....hehe...
talk abt all those frens in madr....
haiz...miss the time sey....
talk abt our nxt plan after sec madr....
she's goin to con'd at pergas....

wow...dt's cool....
takin 2 diploma at the same time.....

for me,i tot of taking the 2 yr course in perdaus 1 st...b4 maeb con'd to pergas...
cz im nt so sure whether i cn cope with 2 diploma at the same time....
1 in madr n 1 in poly.....

then,had lec...i tink ms noreen is a gd lecturer..even better dn the one b4....
laz tym,the lecturer mcm tk guna...
she practically read frm the slides...
tk yah pegi pn tkpe sey....
bt tiz tym,ms noreen really explain every detail.....
n i dn feel tired after 2 hrs....

after dt,had 'group meeting'....
miss the train saleha took ....waited for the other one n ask her to wait for me at raffles..hehe....
had som gals talk...
n she looks so happy...ya,som1's in luv...haha....

went back to cgh to return the claim form...n meet the ite nurses..haha..
miss them lar...miss the fun we had....

haiz...im really nt in the mood to study psycho rite nw...
pop quiz tomorrow...
bt seriozly,no mood sey after 3 wks of attachment...haiz....
juz pray hard so dt im bside with a genius...
u noe wt i mean...haha....